been thinking. been worn out.

I'm back, my readers who don't exist.

I'm gonna spare the details of things and just skip to that part where I document how I feel like a worthless teenage girl. Anyway, all in all I guess I'm just tired. I think way too much about things in the past, but I can't really help it you know? I just always end up thinking about everyone and what I would do if I could live it again. Maybe it's because I haven't really lived in awhile. Seems all I ever do is school, eat, shower, and sleep. My minibike is almost done, which is good in a normal person eyes. That's always kinda been my 'thing' to keep my head on straight. Been dragging that project along for over a year now just to give me something to do. I guess I could always spend my time riding her. I mean it is a vehicle right? I just don't know. Really lately I've just been wanting another relationship, not because I think a daily dose of cheesiness will help me. I'm really craving that drug of feeling alive. And from my experience so far relationships provide the best- most abstract version of that drug. But who am I kidding, I'm too shy and locked away and broke for girls. So anyway. That concludes this update post.